I’m in control, and I have the power. The only thing stopping me from achieving my goals is me.
No more doubts. No more negative thoughts. It’s all in my reach so long as I reach for it and never stop.
So like, I’m watching this show called Fringe right?
(If you watch this show and you haven’t gotten to the beginning of Season 3, spoiler alurrrrrt.)
And in this show, there are two different versions of the characters because they all exist in an alternate universe as well.
And my favorite character(the female lead) got abducted and her alternate self is posing as her.
AND IT MAKES ME FEEL SO DECEIVED.
Because my favorite character is now an enemy. It’s the same person, but not.
SO, now I’m just like UGHH I HATE HER. I LIKE THE OTHER VERSION OF HER. WTH MAN.
It’s like, having a really good friend that you’ve known for so long, and then all of sudden they’re like a completely different person PRETENDING TO BE who they use be. And you know that they’re doing that but you can’t say anything. .
Because then if you did you would be talking to your screen and trying to talk to characters in a TV Show. Which would be crazy.
But omg what if you could talk to them. Wow I sound high. But I don’t smoke. So maybe I’m just really really weird. That’s probably it.
yeah I just needed to vent that because I don’t know anyone else who watches this show.
If you’re reading, omg go watch it. It’s on Netflix. It’s so good.
What are you doing. Go watch it now.
Unless you have homework. Or something. Then avoid it like the plague because I think it’s a really good show and you might get addicted.
I’m gonna be a Dad someday. For sure.
At the end of the day, the very thing I want to do most is music.
When I’m stressed, I sing. When I’m struggling with school projects, I work on music projects to clear my mind.
When I have a show coming up on a weekend, it’s the very thing that excites me about the days to come.
There’s nothing more that I want to do than performing and making music.
Which make me question all this time and money I’ve spent on school. Although, I do enjoy it of course. The opportunities that have opened up for me in the areas of photography and design are exciting. But really, when I get out of school, the plan isn’t to go out into the world and find a job as a designer.
No. I’m going to use everything I learned to help me become a better musician.
I guess I just want to be done with school already. So I can go out and really pursue my dreams.
But that’s just my impatience speaking. Because I know the skills that I’m learning in school are crucial to me being able to turn my dream into a reality.
I just need to stay patient. My time will come, so long as I keep working for it.
A friend recently advised me to ask myself
“Who am I?” and ”Who do I want to be?”
And that alone has been helping me stay focused and in check.
Sometimes you just gotta remind yourself what you’re in this for. And with that remind yourself that you gotta have a game plan if you’re planning on actually getting somewhere with this all.
I just deleted a whole private blog full of years of vents and random thoughts.
It felt like the equivalent of burning a box full of letters from my past.
Time to forget about all that negativity and move on.
It’s not that you need to cut negative people out of your life, because sometimes, those negative people just need positive people to help them be less negative.
If I were to give any sort of life advice, it’d be to take advantage of letting people know how you actually feel about shit.
By some weird reason, some of us are socially constructed into thinking that how we genuinely feel about someone or a situation is wrong. Don’t suppress feelings man, it’ll eat you up. If someone did you real wrong, get mad at them. If you don’t like the way someone’s been treating you, fucking say something. And most importantly, if you’re really into someone, let them know.
I made a promise to myself way back to never suppress my feelings for the sake of avoiding confrontation and/or rejection. Life works out better that way in the long run.
Awwww snaaaaaaaaap new barista at Peets coffee. And he’s cuuuute.
One tall, mocha frappuccino please.
Oh right, and a drink too.
Looks look I’m no longer hung up or crushing on anyone.
As much as I would love to have a significant other, I deserve the right person.
And until that person comes along, I’ll be just fine on my own.
Those who are patient and diligent are rewarded.
I’m tired of this tension.
I just want to resolve things. Whatever issues come between us are so outdated and long forgotten by now. I’d just like my friend back.
I’m okay with losing people. But when it happens out of nowhere and seemingly for no reason?
I hate it and it hurts. I still don’t know what went wrong.
I randomly decided to watch the Season 3 finale of Glee because I haven’t watched the show since mid season 2 and I was curious what happens.
brb crying because I’m a sap.
Lemme just woo you right quick so we can be romantic and cute and shit.
Oh you wanna be friends?
Give me a chance. I’ll change your mind.
I may not have much to offer but damn it I’d still spoil the fuck out of you with what I got.
there’s always a catch
and then I realized I was getting my hopes up when I said I wouldn’t.